Birthday.... Urgh

it could be said that i enjoy the fact of getting older...
But it's the NOUN of Birthday that bothers me..

or in another words..
The typical definition of it that bothers me...
why?
Like... awe... it's your birthday today! where you're goin?
Who did you planned to out with?
Any celebration party???
these.. .. i know that it's some kinda greetings that shows caring..
and i really appreciate those who had greet me. And to the fact, that makes my day.
Or else, it just goin to be another normal day..
And fact.. honey,my day is just normal...YES, even on my birthday.
A simple phrase like "Joyeux Anniversaire" / "happy birthday"/ "生日快乐"
should be just nice and sweet. Oh.. for an ideally minimalist like me.

Instead of thanking my mum for having me , Particularly on this day.
(although at some point, i shouldn't be here... haha, you know i hate me sometimes)
there really nothing so special about it.
Not for a "recently-broke-up" / single gal like me.
And i don't usually party~ All my friends were so far for it~haha..

So how?
i did my regular traditions.. Again!
(and as in traditions, there's another story to mention later... )
First,

i'll draw something particular for each year bday...
the closest to my mood at that particular moment.

Hunts perhaps? YES!
i did went out hunting for clothes, art materials, taking some photos...
(well it sounds like any other day.. LOL)
every year on my bday eve.
i remember that was the day i had my 1st tattoo 3 years back.
And finally i'll go for a movie.

And again, it probably were all SOLO activities...
so you see, it annoys me sometimes when people expect you or supposed you to have some more SPECIAL or DELIGHTS activity goin on.
ya... it's actually kinda boring on that part.

So.......
To the Point,
this year, i really wished to had a (or more) tattoos!
It's like i've been possessed, the blood in me just wanted it. LOL
So this was what i did...
I initially write some script-like words that i washed to tattoo on my hands.





and more...







and it turned out like this...You'll see how much i wanted it. LOL













and that was the drawing for this year.. We still have like.. Christmas's eve, new year's eve....
yea... that's how i celebrate. Die* oh wells, i enjoyed it. Orz

And for the hunt!
i just LOVED this heels of mine, it's the oldest and the most comfortable one.
Especially on days like these.. when you go out alone. ready to discover more..

And i found this at the used clothing store.

Extremely overwhelmed and surprised and delighted!!!!


by Stina Persson! one of my fav artist.





and this, the second image of the left, was the 1st image that makes me fall for Stina Persson!

awe... i LOVED her works so much..
it just unbelievable and so unreal to see her works at here! Malaysia... LOL!
okay... fu*k that.

Heading to some try outs ..
And also what i've got then..





i've got a Moussy top, At 7bucks and a (LOVED) Agnes b. cropped jacket at 30bucks! How Lovely~! devilish** nyananya....

for the movie..
I've watched COLOMBIANA..
those scenes makes me wanna go to Colombia~ XDD
and i like how Catheleya was characterized..
She's smart, she's artistic, SHE KILLS!!
hahaha...

and the scene that makes me feels is the scene when
Catheleya was asked to tell more of herself, she cried.
Probably because it's too much ... too complicated past, something that she had long buried and should not tell.. even to the person she loved.
that particular scene, i feel like crying..
Cause i've been the same scene..
i know what it feels like...
it's like to dig the pain that you pretend there's none.
Even you thought it wouldn't bother you anymore...

and the movie passed. hahahah...
i like the characters, the plotting, the mood, the story,
where the movie took place and the ending.
it's like a portray of a real person. At least it applied, on me~ haha..


and that's what happened on urgh.. bday this year, which is, nothing much happened.
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Oh Oops...
i forgot bout the traditions..

okay..
it's rather a curse,
Every year of my bday, i may cried cause of events..
(can you believe that? it just like something will happen, out from nowhere..
POP, there you go.. tears.)
(sad, bitter, or even events that reminds me bout the bitterness happened! Urgh..)
And this year is no different.

just when i thought nothing special will occurred to me.

it did.
It's like this,
A particular event that took place without any expectation,
that reminds me of the bitterness of recent events. i mean.. like ..5 months ago.
that's all i can say.
(You know what i mean if you know. haha..)

and me like AGAIN!!!!!!!! wtf??

God~~~ i dont know when it started, but as far as i remember i cried on my bday like N years?

Already?

It must be a curse!!

And GOSH!!!!!
every year i made the same wish : I DONT WANNA CRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR
Seriously.

NO CRY NEXT YEAR, be my guest.